I decided today to go back to high school and get an actual diploma. Tomorrow is my first day of only one semester at Frontier High School in the town of Elizabeth and well...I'm not excited because it's with people who know all about me, but who I know nothing about. Oh, and it's in Elizabeth. But on the plus side, it's closer than anything else and I'll be with an actual diploma in only a few months.

Saturday I have a second interview with Barnes and Nobles up in Lone Tree and I'm so fucking giddy about it. This girl Nicole researched the labor and high school attendance laws this evening for me and since I'm 18, I'm allowed to be there until midnight as long as I'm willing. Ahhh, I can't wait to be working until midnight then going to school at 8am again...especially with that 45 minute drive inbetween. But I suppose I can sacrafice sleep for the job of my nerdy little dreams.

And then of course...tonight I hung out with Kyle for the first time and well, surprisingly had a good time despite how fucking awkward it was. Only reason it was awkward was because the whole time I was thinking of how neat he is and how nice it would be to have someone be like that with me again all the time, but having the fact of it not being Nate taunt me the whole time I was with him. Grr...I don't know why I do this to myself. I've been technically alone since my birthday and I haven't been happier and I've still been all Nate's. Honestly, I'm not ready to be anyone elses and don't think that I ever will be. I still consider myself all to him, even if I'm not 'labeled' that way and I technically have all the freedoms that any single girl of 18 should have. I've been shaping my life since then around being alone by busying myself with 2 jobs and now going back to school and staying busy and making sure that I indulge myself in the time I have alone with me, myself and I at home. Plus I'm so close to getting a job that I wouldn't mind dedicating every second of spare time to and well, I still include Nate in every part of my life and still treat him like I always have. I don't think I'm going to be able to give that up for something that isn't...real, if you will. I have had this problem with every boy that I've been with since I met Nate...they fall in love with me, but I never really fall in love with them. Sounds stupid, but I know a few of you who understand what I'm talking about.

*shrug*

I guess it really doesn't matter. Things will all work out in their own way and in their own time.

For now, I think some much needed rest is well...much needed, so I am off.

Wee! So, I got a tattoo today. It's the Ohm symbol and it looks fucking awesome. See below for further details and such...it's also only slightly smaller than the picture shows and it's located on the back on my neck.



And then, the funny shade of red that is my hair:



I think it looks alrighty...Nate says it brings out the green of my eyes. LoL.

Uhhh...that is all.

So, the result of "windowpane-acid", which I guess is just two hits on one blotter paper, is this:

Me: So where is this conversation going right now?
Nate: Into a pointless oblivion.
Me: It was a pointless oblivion from the time I answered the phone.
Nate: So hang up, then. *laflaf*
Me: Okay! *snicker*...*click*


Mwahahahaha.
We're so stupid to one another.

x.x

So there is this little girl who holds her creation in the future. She's a gorgeous little one, this one is. With bright, wavy, glowing blonde locks and deep blue eyes you could drown yourself in. She's our first born and she's daddy's little girl in every respect of the phrase. In her face, heart, mind and soul you can see her fathers reflection. Her name is Indica Lillie...

Friends Only.